Thursday, March 31, 2005
i just read a friend's blog.. and what he said really really touched me.. so much so that i actually teared.. heh .. =D hai.. Lord, thank You so much for loving me so so so unconditionally, thank You for caring for me so so so dearly, thank You so much for just being my Refuge.. thank You for letting me run to you when i'm down.. thank You for taking me into Your loving arms and just sayang me.. i love you Lord! =D love You love You love You love YOU! =)
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3:27 PM
Monday, March 28, 2005
oh!! and i haven't said something! today in children's church i was trying to stop these two brothers from fighting.. quite interesting.. hahahah.. 'cos my jiejie and i were playing with some little girls.. then i suddenly heard a boy shouting, "teacher help me help me!" then i turned around and saw this little boy calling out to me.. and he was like standing a table away from another little boy.. whom was his little brother.. and it turns out that the little brother wants to beat him.. 'cos he supposedly punched his little brother.. then the little brother started to run after him.. to chase after him.. and i tried to block the little brother's way.. but then to no avail.. then i threatened them that i'll go call teacher sam to come.. teacher sam is the "chief" teacher.. it was quite an interesting experience! hahahaha
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2:03 PM
yummy yummy cadbury roasted almond chocolates.. heavenly.. hahahahah! i just couldn't resist.. hahahah it's not healthy for the body to go too long without any good chocolate.. it just isn't right.. hahahaha
i'm so excited about the bengen camp!!! i want it to happen NOW!!! hahahahah! can't wait man.. heh =D i'm soooo sure i'm going to be super blessed by the camp! heh =D going to room with one of our new caregroup members, minghui! =) my fellow acsian! yay! =) two years my junior.. =) so glad that now there are more ac people in my caregroup! heh =D
today gris, deb and i went shopppppppiiinnnggg! sort of lah.. heh.. but it was SUPER fun! =D and gris is C.R.A.Z.Y! hahahahah! she laughs so loudly!! so embarassing! thank goodness citilink was very noisy already.. so it wasn't that obvious.. hahahaha.. wa.. really had alot alot of fun today! right cameron and drew? hahahahahahahahahah! =D
after that i went to children's church to serve.. =D have a lovely time there too! =D talked to people and little kids too! there was one girl in particular who was soooooo pretty!!!! her name is renae.. and she's half jap half chinese! heh =D really really sweet girl.. heh =) i think i want to name my daughter renee! heh =D but renae is nice too! heh =D shall ask my husband.. hahahah! =D
lalalala.. just came back from dinner at liang court at the meidi-ya supermarket.. this jap supermarket.. the privilage of having meidi-ya close to my house is that i can see many many many super duper cute jap little children and babies in the area!!!! hahahahahaha! =D and occasionally cute jap young boys too! those teenagers! wahahahahahahah! somehow it's good that i moved.. hahahah! =D
ok! tomorrow going to give tuition! =D remainder and factor theorem.. and logarithms.. heh =D
oh i told three people about my thingy.. all three reacted differently.. one understood what i really felt, one supported the other party, the last one just said stuff which was against me.. haiyoooooo.. never mind never mind.. heh =D God's still in charge!! =D
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1:00 PM
Sunday, March 27, 2005
yay! i'm blogging! hahahah! =)
can i start this post on a slightly seriosu note? heh.. =) aiya, as in like i think i really want to go overseas leh.. as in to study.. i don't know.. it was just yesterday, i suddenly felt like just leaving here and going somewhere else for a change of environment.. i also don't know why i felt that way.. very weird.. hmmm.. i don't know leh.. it's like nowadays, i think i'm too carefree and worry-free that i feel so empty? hahahaha! is there such a thing?? people talk to me!! hahahaha =) tell me what you all think ok? =) as in like, is there such a thing as trusting God too much? but got what right.. but my life is too relaxed!!!! hahahahah! aiyo, this is so funny... funny as in weird-funny not haha-funny.. heh.. =)
ok anyway, i finally went down to relc today in the morning to submit my application for university of adelaide.. took a bus from my place to taka, then i went to the konica shop to photocopy my documents.. people, PLEASE don't go to that shop to develop your photos or purchase stuff or whatever ok? their service is SUPER bad, they don't even SMILE at you, never do they even utter a WORD of THANK YOU. and when this couple just left the shop, one of the shopgirls was complaining about them and saying alot of bad things about them.. terrible terrible.. AND..... they charge one piece of photocopy for TWENTY STUPID CENTS! that's ridiculous lor.. i should have just gone to the lucky plaza shop.. arrgghh.. so please do me a favour and never ever ever ever ever ever EVER step foot into that konica shop at taka ok? thank you so much... heh =)
then after that i walked from taka all the way to relc (which by the way is a VERY long walk in).. and then i submitted my application, which took like 5 minutes.. and then i walked ALL the way from relc (beside shangri-la hotel) to OG (beside orchard emerald).. and i was sweating like nobody's business.. all the effort just to hand in an application form... ok fine, i shouldn't be complaining.. it was good exercise.. hahahahah! =D that's the good thing about staying in town.. can exercise more.. 'cos no excuse for taking the bus.. 'cos everywhere is "in the area".. so cannot slack.. hahahah! =)
anyway yesterday my lovely caregroup had easter/good friday bbq paaaarrrrrtttyyyy! hahahahah! =D our dear "hide and find the chocolate easter eggs" game was a disaster.. hahahah! i bet there are still many many chocolate easter eggs at lydia's condo.. hahahah! the ants will have a feast! hahahahah! =D the bbq was super good! the food was yummy yummy yummy! i'm so blessed to have those guys in my caregroup! great chefs! hahahaha! =D and thanks ah you guys, for keep calling me indra shadam.. aiyo i don't even know how to spell his name.. haahaahh.
after the bbq we went to play at the playground... the merry-go-round, and all the guys got on.. and the girls tried to spin the wheel.. but boy they were heavy! hahahahaa! then after that we went to the tennis courts.. some of us played tennis, but the max was like four at a time, 'cos we only had four rackets.. then the rest just sat around.. then later we decided to play dougeball.. girls versus guys.. and whoa. it was VIOLENT... hahahahha! the guys are merciLESS lor.. hahahahha! i kena whacked on my toes.. hahahaha.. then we decided that it was too violent a game, so we stopped.. hahaha.. then actually we all wanted to play floorball one.. but then the horrible residents complained to the security guard, and the security guard came up to the courts to ka-jiao us.. so irritating.. bleh.. so in the end we were just hanging around in the courts.. then some playing tennis.. just l ike that lor.. heh.. =)
after that we went back to lydia's house for desert! heh =) we reaally had a great time! heh =) except something that was sort of bothering me lah.. (deb knows! and honestly i can't believe that i'm still so affected by it.. hmmm..) but Lord, please take care of it ok? heh =)
i'm all alone at home now.. was packing the wardrobe just now.. haven't finish yet.. i think still have a looooonnnggg way to go.. way too many clothes.. hahahah! and i'm hungry!! so i resorted to eating tim-tams!!! this is BAD!! hahahaha! aiya don't care lah.. hahahah.. Lord, please take care of my body too ya? hahahahah! =)
oh!!! serene and i are FINALLY going on a trip together!!!! you know i'm SSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOO happy! heh =) and excited!!! =D yay yay yay!! =) going to melbourne on the 9th to the 16th of may.. after my birthday.. heh =) then going to stay with the twins!!!! heh.. accomodation and transport all settled.. heh.. =) the air tickets are going to be delivered to my house on monday! heh =) and serene and i still have great plans to go to BANGKOK!!! yes!!! we must we must! our shopping trip! heh =) really hope my mummy and her mummy will agree on letting us go.. =D i think the reality of serene really leaving singapore for canada to study hasn't sunk in for me.. or maybe i just don't allow it to.. but i think nearer the date of her departure then it will.. hai.. God knows the only thing that i'm "worried" about.. but when i read kenneth e hagin's word of faith magazine, the march issue.. God really showed me... matthew 9:38 " pray ye therefore the Lord of the harvest, that He will sent forth labourers into His harvest." amen! =) for her, i may not be the labourer (although i hope i am.. 'cos i love her so much.. but then God reminded me again that the credit doesn't go to me..). i can just only pray that God send a labourer into her path.. =)
God knows my heart lah.. He knows what i really really desire.. and i believe that He's the One who put all these strong desires into my heart.. and that if He did that, He'll surely know how to follow-up on it.. =) aiya, but yet again, it's so easy to say.. but sometimes our human side just dominates for awhile.. which is very irritating.. haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.................................. stupid devil!!!! he should just realise where his place in this world is and stay there for good! yeah man...
oh one night ago i was talking to a guy friend about stuff about relationships.. quite interesting lah.. hahaha.. then we asked each other what qualities would we want in our partners.. and the first thing i said was that he must be a man of God lah.. then i listed some other stuff.. but i forgot to say that he must also be sensitive.. sensitive to both me and others.. ya.. it's really very important leh! even more important than looks and outer appearances.. ya.. i cannot take it when people are insensitive and say things that really hurt but they don't know that they hurt at all..
ok lah, i think i've said alot already... think i'm going to go get another tim-tam again.. heh =D then going to continue reading my Howl's Moving Castle book!!!! heh =D be super duper blessed people!! =D i was just listening to pastor's message on The Blessings of The Third Day. we are the third day generation, people!!!! like esther, we have GREAT favour! like jonah, we have GREAT deliverance! like the bride and groom at the wedding, we have GREAT providence! amen amen amen! =D and why are we the third day generation? 'cos a thousand years on earth is like one day for God.. so from yr 0000 to yr 1000, that's the first day.. from yr 1000 to yr 2000, that's the second day.. so from yr 2000 to yr 3000, that's the third day! and Jesus rose up from the death VERRRRRYYYYYY EAARLY in the morning on the third day!!! oh hey hey hey! yr 2004 is veeerrrryyyy early for the third day! and hey hey hey! we are living in the very-early-days of the third day.. and hey hey hey! our dear wonderful amazing loving sweet Daddy is coming back to get us!!! yayyyyyyyy!!!! hahahahah! i'm crazy! hahahahah! =D my dear friends, look up! and see Jesus coming for His bride! =D for YOU!!!! =D
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12:00 PM
Thursday, March 10, 2005
ok i have to make this quick 'cos i'm at office and i don't think i'm suppose to use the internet 'cos they can trace my internet onlinei time and which sites i visit.. hahahah.. but anyway it's lunch time now, and mel and i are back early, so i presume we are free to do what we like right? so can come online right? heh..
anyway just wanted to say about what happened this morning... i was taking the lift down from my house today lah, then it stopped at this floor, then a china man walked in.. then he started talking to me.. asked me about school etc.. very weird one lah.. hahahah.. i think God is trying to make me improve on my chinese communication skills leh.. hahahah! 'cos remember i wrote in my previous entry? that these group of china women asked me for help.. really leh.. hahahaha is it just coincidence? heh.. =)
ok, i better go now! heh.. still have to send an email to mr perrin to ask him to write my testimonial! heh.. =)
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4:51 AM
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
aiyo.. i'm bullied by gris ah.. got scolded "lazy pig".. that's how sad lah.. hahahahah! but true lah.. i always want to write one.. but then too lazy.. hahaha
i just came home from tuition.. and guess what???!!!! my slippers broke!!! ahhhh!!! was on the escalator out of the mrt.. then just as i took my first step off the escalator.. "bak!".. it broke.. THANK GOD i didn't fall.. although i tripped.. hahahahah! so pai seh.. 'cos that time was peak hour.. so alot of people.. hahahah.. and i couldn't walk properly lah!! so i had to drag my slipper along.. hahahahahahah! but then when the ground became rough.. i couldn't drag my slipper properly.. hahahahah so i was like limping... haiyo.. then later i just gave up and walked barefooted.. left foot had the slipper on, right foot was bare.. hahaha.. and you know what? i don't think anyone noticed it! hahahahah! praise God! they must have been too mesmerized by my glorious face to notice my bare foot.. hahahahahahahahahah! joking joking.. heh =D okay, so let me share where God came in.. as i was on the mrt on the way to tuition right, my tuitee's mother called me and asked me whether i needed a lift from the mrt to the house.. praise God right??!!! if not i had to walk ALLL the way to the house... the distance is counted far for a poor girl without a shoe on.. i think if i really walked to her house right, the sole of my foot would have been charcoal black lah.. hahahahah! see.. our dear God is so good.. heh.. He really knows what's going to happen leh.. He has been to my future! hahahahah! =D {oh it's very funny 'cos the other time when my other slipper snapped it was also in the mrt and it snapped when i just took my first step off the escalator.. heh.. interesting interesting.. )
another testimonial! =) 'cos my work usually ends at five thirty right.. but then today mel wanted to stay until six.. so i stayed with her.. so i didn't get to eat dinner.. and i was planning on just eating my very yummy blueberry tarts.. but then in the end because of my broken slipper and because my tuitee's mother came to fetch me, i didn't get to eat my yummy tarts.. BUT THEN.. guess what?? =) when i got into her car when she came to fetch me, there was food on the seat beside me!!! hahahahaha! praise God! she bought dinner for me leh!! heh.. 'cos her daughter wanted to eat chicken curry.. so she bought for
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can i talk about my A Level results now? heh.. =) ok, so anyway, i wasn't nervous about the results at all.. both mel and i.. we were just like happily working.. really leh, not a single bit nervous.. God knows.. heh.. =) 'cos i really trust Him lah.. just rested in Him.. and still resting.. =) so anyway, on thursday night we went for bible study.. then after the service there was post-service praise and worship.. which lasted for quite long.. but it was really good.. =) it's very rare that we have such a long praise and worship after service.. =) so anyway, during praise and worship, i suddenly thought about my air rifle thingy.. about how my nationals last year screwed up.. despite me trusting so much in God.. and like was very confident in Him.. ya.. then 'cos God told me many many times already that He has promised me my four As and one A1 for my A Levels... that's why i was really relaxed lah.. but then don't know why during post-service praise and worship right, i was suddenly like, "oh no, am i going to be disappointed again?".. ya.. hai, i know i shouldn't even think that thought.. but it just happened.. must be the stupid devil... he's so irritating.. bleh...
so anyway, the next day mel and i went for work.. we took half day leave.. yupyup.. so after work kaixiang came to pick us up, and the both of us still didn't feel a least bit nervous.. the only feeling i was feeling was that of hunger.. hahahah.. 'cos i haven't had my lunch.. heh.. so anyway my class was suppose to meet at bk at holland v.. i went to bk, and met audrey and her friends there.. then sat with them for awhile.. then it was still early, and i found out that deborah and gris were at nydc... so i went to meet them.. and guess what?? i ate one WHOLE jedi mudster by myself!!! oh noooo!!! hahahahahah! but my goodness, it was GOOD... hahahahah! =D but it's like ten dollars lah.. day-light robbery lor.. hahahahah! =D anyway i realised something, gris takes SUPER long to order her food.. hahahaha... i think one hour right, gris??? hahahaha! so i concluded, it's either she doesn't want to eat anything but it's like she's compelled to get something, or she's dieting, or she just simply takes very long to order her food.. hahahahah!
so anyway after that the both of them went back to school, 'cos deb had to go get her chinese results, then i met tong and mer at starbucks.. and melissa khong and daryl were there too! =) we had a good time.. kept laughing.. super funny lah.. hahahaha.. ok then after that we had to go back to school already.. by the way i was still very relaxed.. it's really the peace of God you know.. really the peace.. =) then ok in the hall, we saw paulcheong!!!! heh =D then as we were sitting down, paulcheong told gladys to sit along the aisle, so that it'll be easier for her to get out to go on stage later.. so it's like confirm she got her three As lor.. {'cos for AC, those people who get four As or three As will receive their results on stage}.. yupyup.. then i was like, "hai.. why he never tell me to sit along the aisle too?".. quite sad lah.. so anyway, they announced the names of the people who got four As, then my name wasn't called out, so i was like, "hai.. ok..". then they announced the names of the people who got three As, then my name wasn't called out again, then i was like, "shit.".. so what happens next is that all those who aren't on stage are suppose to go to their form teacher to get their results... and as i was like getting out of my seat, i started crying already.. heh.. mer mer was with me.. i think i scared her.. hahahahh! as in i made her want to cry too.. ya... haiya, i don't know why i cried.. i think it was a mixture of nervousness and disppointment? i'm not sure either.. ya.. so i was trying to hard to control myself.. but cannot leh.. i just cried.. then i went up and took my result slip from paulcheong.. but i didn't look at it, i just stuffed it into my bag.. then i faster ran off to find serene, but then i saw grace first, then later i saw bee so i went to her.. and i went with her to the staircase beside the stage.. then i was waa... really crying uncontrollably.. although i still haven't seen my results.. hahahahahah! just too overwhelming lah.. whatever i was feeling.. hahahah.. i think it was disappointment.. yeah.. and nervous lah.. then very funny.. 'cos the staircase leads from the balcony of the hall to the main hall.. then all the j ones who were watching the whole getting-back-of-results-thingy used that stairs to exit lah.. then my dear junior, weiming, he walked down that stairs lah.. then he saw me then i think i scared him.. hahahahahahh! sorry weiming! hahahahah he was super funny, he like didn't want to leave, then he like stood beside me.. then i kept shoo-ing him away.. hahahahah kept asking him to go.. hahahaah super funny.. anyway everyone left.. then it was just bee and me again.. then i asked her to see my results for me.. then she saw.. then i asked her, "did i get any Ds?".. then she said, "no." then i asked her did i get any As, then she said, "no.".. then so it's either Bs or Cs now right? then she gave up and just told me straight that my grades were all the same.. so then i took the slip from her and saw lor, all Bs... gp B3.. i think God is very cute you know.. i wanted all As, and He gave me all Bs.. you know what.. ok i must admit that i was sad for like the first fifteen minutes.. but then after that right, i was totally relaxed about it again.. i don't know lah, i just know that my God takes care of me, and i trust Him for what He's doing with my life, He knows what He's doing lah yup? =) and you know what i believe? i believe that God gave me these grades so that when i get into medicine right, ALL the glory really goes to Him.. then i cannot boost that i got into medicine because of my all As grades.. He's good you know.. He's good.. =D i just feel God's love for me so so much.. He's really with me.. hai.. my dear Daddy is so super duper good =D anyway i'm super duper proud of my class, of acjc, and of everyone! everyone did so well! =D i'm so proud of you people!!! heh =D CONGRATULATIONS!!!! =D
oh on sunday, before i went for third service, at clementi mrt, this group of china women asked me how to buy the standard ticket to city hall.. then i helped them and explained to them how the whole thing works.. then after the whole thing, one of them said, "shang4 di4 bao3 you4 ni3" (God bless you).. then later she asked whether i was "ji4 du4 jiao4" (Christian).. then i was like yup! but then later on the escalator i doubled checked with her that "ji4 du4 jiao4" meant Christian.. hahahahah! 'cos i wanted to make sure.. hahahahah! so anyway i didn't get into the same carriage as them.. but then on the way to city hall in the train, i was just thinking that afte r i alight i'll go and look for them to help them refund their one dollar.. yupyup.. so i did.. then they were pleasantly surprised to see me come help them.. hahahah! then i heard one of them saying, "shang4 di4 zhen1 de4 pai4 le4 yi3 ge4 tian1 shi3" (God sent an angel for us).. wahahahahahahah! of course i pretended i didn't hear that lah.. but i did.. wahahahahah! angel leh.. angel.. hahahahahahah! God's so cute... hahahahahaha! =D
anyway, my korkor went to church with us!!! heh =D so happy =)
oh i'm moving house tomorrow! tomorrow the movers will load all the stuff into the lorry.. then tomorrow morning then they'll transport the stuff down to oxley.. =)
oh we're going night cycling on friday!!! heh =D can't wait can't wait =D
serene and i are planning on going to australia.. really hope this really works out.. =) aiya, you know i see alot of nice things i want to buy.. but then i don't want to spend my money.. hai.. must control must control.. God's my Provision! heh =D
ok lah, very late already.. twelve forty two already.. i better go sleep.. or else tomorrow wake up late again then have to take cab to work.. heh... =D eh? i haven't told you all about my work yet hor? heh =) another day lah ok? =) which means another few more months later... hahahahahahah! ok lah, i'll try to update soon ok? i'll try.. hahahahahahah! =D my dear friends, JESUS LLLOOOOOOOVVVVVEEESSSSS YOU!!! heh =D
(hahaha this is a super long post lah... i wonder whether anyone of you will actually read it to the end.. hahahaha! )
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